Bad decisions make great stories

Yea they do but in this case they make an extremely annoyed story teller of an extremely stupid story. I have to either work out or take and work on some photos to feel about right. Made a stupid decision tonight/this morning. Here are two from today and just a few moments ago.

Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow?

It has been a semester of college, and it is really different from high school. It moves a lot faster and I noticed that there is a lot of time in between classes and a lot of time that I should be studying. From what I took this semester and from what I am going to take in the coming semesters I really need to pick up the work load and start really working. I am not sure what my grade is at this point but I think that a 3.00 by now is acceptable but really a 3.50 is what I am aiming for. There is no one there to hold my hand to make sure that I understand everything, I need to do things for myself and make sure I understand the materials. From the start of the college semester I didn’t really know what to do. I would take naps in the library and not do anything with my time because I thought it was like high school. Everything would come to me like it did back in high school. Teachers would beat the subjects into you making sure that you understand things and gave you many tests to work on so you would do well. But it’s not. It’s been the complete opposite. For now it is one down seven more to go.

But enough about school. The semester is over and people are coming back. There should be more time to hang out and not care about the stresses in life that are coming up and behind us. It is almost Christmas and I really haven’t gotten the one thing that I wanted. A new lens. I have been back and forth about what I want and to this point and right now it is a Sigma 30mm f/1.4 that I really want. It is a fast lens and I think that I want to experiment with this length. There is a lot of snow outside right now.

I don’t know what I am going to do all break. There is a lot of time from now and the next semester. I know what during this break I am going to pick up on photography. I want to print and hang up things from vacation and family events. I want to buy frames and just throw everything on the walls of my house. The walls look so bare and dead without anything right now. (Except for the occasional writing and scribbling of my little sister) I want to work out a lot more. From what I experienced is that studying doesn’t work out with working out. You have to put a lot of time into studying and you don’t get to work out anymore. I want to know that I am not going to wake up anymore in the middle of the night worrying about my future and what I am going to do in life. There are a lot of things I want to do but I am not sure if there is enough time or when the time is right to do them. And so because one of the nights I was up thinking about life I was watching Jimmy Fallon on Hulu and I came across this saying I don’t quite remember but it went something like this, ‘Never say you don’t have enough time, say you have plenty of time. If you say you never have time; you never get things done. Your body and time start to move faster. When you have plenty of time your mind and spirit move slower in time.’ -Deepak Chopra.

I have plenty of time.